My mother has this odd verbal pattern. She often
speaks of things in threes. It's worse now, with the dementia. I
can't remember when it started. For a long time whenever she can't
remember something, or can't figure things out, she will hit herself in the
head and shout "stupid, stupid, stupid!" She also does this when she
sees old age spots on her arms and doesn't like them. It makes me
angry when I find myself doing the same thing from time to time and I try
very hard NOT to.
But it's not only stupid-stupid-stupid. When we go
driving around in Davis, she often says "cars, cars, cars," when she sees
cars parked on the street or in an apartment parking lot and then comments
on how there are no old beat-up cars in Davis, but they are all new looking.
In the dining room, she will look around and say "people,
people, people." She always says "people" and "cars" in a tone that
implies she thinks there should not be so many people or so many cars.
I never really know how to answer that.
But then she also often says "trees, trees, trees" when we
are driving around somewhere green--and I know she loves trees. And if
we happen to pass a field of cattle, it's "cows, cows, cows," in a tone that
asks "what are cows doing here?"
In a noisy place, it will be "talk, talk, talk," as if when
people, people, people are gathered together in a place they shouldn't be
talking because it disturbs her, or if people have brought their children
into a restaurant, it's "kids, kids, kids." I know she likes kids but
when people, people people and kids, kids, kids get together there is always
talk talk, talk and that upsets her.
I think a part of this verbal oddity is that even
pre-dementia she was ever the social butterfly who took it upon herself to
keep conversation going. Never to let silence just be. In
the days when she was still going to Santa Barbaa with us, I really got to
hate the 8 hour drive because she kept herself awake and kept a conversation
going. Walt and I generally either drive in silence or listen to a
book on tape. It was exhausting to have to have an 8 hour conversation
so that silence didn't bother her. So I think that now when she has
nothing to say, she can always say cars, cars, cars or trees, trees, trees
and that kind of fills the vacuum.
Today we went to her last appointment at Kaiser. Her
wound is healing nicely and I have antibiotic to put on it daily until the
scabs come off (unless her rubbing her face rubs them off, in which case
we'll have to watch for another infection).
Add to things she does not handle well: waiting for a
medical person to come and see her I think it took maybe 10 minutes
for the nurse practitioner to come and look ather, and there was lots of
heavy sighing, lots of asking what we were waiting for, asking if this is an
appointment for her or for me, lots of asking why people were standing
around doing nothing.
But the news about her wound was good and I told her that
because she was such a good girl, I would treat her to an ice cream sundae.
I had decided this after yesterday's Chinese food lunch, which she seemed to
enjoy so much. There is a wonderful ice creamery, Fentons, in
Vacaville, about 20 miles away, which makes outrageous ice cream treats and
knowing how much she likes ice cream, I thought it would be a nice treat for
her. I got her to eat another cereal bar for breakfast, so at least
she has something slightly nutritious (but not much).
The place was full (people, people, people, kids, kids,
kids, talk, talk, talk) and in that open barn-like restaurant there is no
sound-absorbing material, so the noise level was high. But we each had
straberry sundaes which were very decadent. Fentons' sundaes always
come with a bowl so full that the syrup poured over the ice cream always
ends up pooled in the saucer on which it is served
She ate every single bit of her sundae (as did I) and we went away happy and sated...and maybe a little bit naughty.
I decided to go home "the back way," up Hwy 505 to Winters
and then through the orchards back to Davis. What a GREAT idea. She
was in heaven with all the trees--and the variety of trees.
As we were approaching Davis she started yawning and I could
see that she would take a nice nap when she got home. She actually
told me she had a nice day today. I can't remember the last time she
did that.
I'm going to have to find more activities like this, that
take minimal walking and especially that are cheaper. I've spent
nearly $100 the past two days, but it's been worth it to see her enjoying
herself.
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